Nathan Troi Anderson is a photographer working out of Cortez, Colorado. He is the author of Shadows of Time (Mark Batty Publisher, 2006). |
Decay is just another
senseless borderline between
the whisper of the
ghosts of past days and
the roar of painfully recovered
memories. It is the heavy boots
of time and the luster in the countless
tiny eyes of rats. Time, rats, time, rats…
so goes the unbearably slow pace of decay
turning dust into ash and ash into
nothing. But Man, the son of decay (often
misspelled as “clay”), has invented
a wonderful set of wild lies, including
culture, history and the self to rationalize
the fear of decay in the vain hope of
breaking its logos. He imprisoned time
in small ticking boxes and banished the
luster of all the world’s rats’ eyes into
the realm of metaphor. Nevertheless,
all that humanity did was shackle itself
to decay. Hourly, time sticks its tongue
out from the small ticking boxes mocking
humans’ impatient denial of decay.
But it is there, everywhere. It is there in
the big eyes of famine-struck children
in Africa. It is there lurking glaringly
in the eyes of criminals, war-mongers,
politicians and all of the fake statues of
liberty in the third world.
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Are all human perceptions then but
pale shadows of decay? A gathering of
dancing shadows drifting aimlessly in
the endless corridors of human memory?
What remains are the pale reflections
of decay’s shadows: in the shattered
mirror of human life: the broken
joy of what once was a smile and the
deep trails of time’s ticking wheels on
a severely wrinkled face. Here are the
crumbled and faded shadows of yesterday’s
footprints.
J. K. Putnam
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But then isn’t the invocation of decay
a celebration of human hypocrisy? The
same time-shattered face can be an
ugly spectacle and/or a mirror of wisdom
and experience. It depends on the
viewer and the object in question. Such
semantics of human hypocrisy (or is it
indecision, or denial?) can elevate the
bitter sum of human tyranny and suffering
to that of a cherished historical
relic. Rome’s Coliseum: What do the
swarms of tourists look at and preserve
in their photos and videos but the irresistible
appeal of decay to the innermost
darkness in the human soul?
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The shining heroics of war also render
this fine, confused line. They are no
more than a thin curtain screening the
ultimate degradation of humanity into
the abyss of decay. Medals, decorations,
codes of honor are the glory of decay
in the human world. Every war, every
medal, every military parade is a celebration
of the eternal imprisonment of
humanity in decay’s all-encompassing
arena: tombstones mark the endless
trails of the murdered, disfigured, orphaned,
homeless, dishonored: the betrayal
of all that is human.
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Decay is so familiar because it puts
on a human face and walks with a big,
funny smile that disdains our desperate
clinging to free will and the stock exchange. That familiarity might breed
contempt but decay as a human mask
surely breeds names and epithets
that foreground human language and
perception. The world and eternity are
really linguistic constructs of decay;
this “d” proliferates every mortal
second of the human lexicon: decay,
decline, decomposition, degeneration,
deterioration, dust, devil, death,
defense, democracy. Are the d-days of
human history but commemorations of
this familiarity? Isn’t decay the actual
proprietor of all the prisons, hospitals,
cemeteries and other institutions
of civilized human society? Find me
a mortal who won’t shake hands with
decay... because I could not stop for
decay he gently stopped for me. What
remains in the wake of decay but the
shuttered remains of broken sunrays,
a handful of maggots and the hollow
echo “Say the struggle availeth not!”
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So the prophecy goes (said in a deadly
serious, but fake, Hollywood tone):
“Desperately helpless stands the Son
of Man on the plains of Mount Armageddon
defiantly facing the armies of
Decay with few weapons left: the laughter
of children, the chirrup of sparrows
and the faith in tomorrow’s sunset.”
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